It's been a good year, a busy year. A year of so many firsts.
I completed four sprint triathlons, the bike portions for both half-iron and full-iron distance triathlons, several metric centuries, a solo century, and a half marathon. It was a long season, and I didn't train as much as I should have. Crashed and burned in November, then got sick. Now I am struggling to get my groove back and be consistent.
I turned 40.
I've made a few good friends from exercising. I also lost a few friendships this year. I've angered several people, I have been shunned. I was unfriended by someone I had considered a good acquaintance - I still have no idea what happened there. I suspect it's simply that I am me.
I am liberal and outspoken. I take a lot of pictures of my kids and their firsts, their seconds... their everything. I show up at baby showers in jeans. I don't get into jewelry or clothes. I don't wear make-up very often anymore. I make stupid jokes. I have a big nose and crooked teeth.
Today is one of those days I really want to tell everyone to flip off.
Seriously. I want to crawl into a hole, eat hash browns and drink beer until I forget I our cats' names.
But I won't.
I will keep wearing fur-lined crocs to the grocery store. I will keep being liberal and unapologetic. I'll still plaster your newsfeed with pictures of my kids.
I can only be who I am. I will never please everyone. I will NOT let others rule my happiness.
And eventually when my efforts at being friendly are clearly not wanted - I will leave.
Not going into my hole today, but some time soon, I just might.